Twanger bent down to pick up his little girl's donut. Urban types in
raincoats and earrings moved in and out of waiting areas, like catfish suspicious
of low tide.
"Why, it's just like Kansas City, ain't it, Garita?" he whispered
to his baby. The hostility of New York was palpable, even to an month old
child.
"Looks like all that fast-livin took the finish of their skin...Huh,
Garita? Scrap iron." Margarita jerked, dropping her donut a third time.
Patiently, Twanger loosed his belt and scooped down. A proper "Papa"
Squat. A few irascible silent types watched in disgust as the broken donut
travelled from terminal floor to teething mouth without so much as a brushing
off. Twanger caught the drift of bad vibes.
"Everyone's got their dirt quota, Garita. Some folks eat it, some folks
breathe it, and some folks need it so dang bad they soak it up through their
eyes." Margarita drooled a long line of sugar spittle across her father's
shoulder.
"Near as I can figure it, most of these East Coast hard-eyed critics
see so much dirt everyday of their lives they're just addicted to searching
it out wherever they happen to look. How your mother escaped so clean I
hold Your's Truly responsible. Ain't that the truth, huh, Garita?"
Margarita thought that was a good one, and jerked her knees in happy contractions
against his red flannel shirt. Twanger did a step of a jig or two to keep
the baby buoyantly distracted as he scanned the mouth of arrival gate for
any indication of action.
Twanger didn't love anything in life as much as his girls. Wife and baby.
He figured his indenture to a -string guitar assigned him since boyhood
by Uncle Reeves, of the Reeves Boys Country Pickers, was fated to be annulled
the moment he heard the splendiferous peels of laughter out of his future
Mrs. Bonnie Alise Belgetti from Canarsie, Brooklyn, a Cherubic Italian chanteuse,
had fled social science at Missouri State to sing "Bewitched"
one night with the Fireaters, on a dare, at Elmo's Kansas City Emporium.
It was . She was hired on the spot. She was out in the parking lot tweezing
her brows between sets one month later, and Twanger had been following her
career all May when he finally found the courage to approach her. She laughed
so loud and high and sweet he thought he'd had a sexual encounter. "Like
a manifestation of good living," he thought, and the rest of his life
fell in line. Casual minors in anthropology and religion, which had wet
his appetite for deep meanings, were dropped, and Twanger set about the
business of seriously perusing the job market for the legitimate sustenance
of the abundant brood this tweezed-brow goddess would bear him.
He had mentally married her on first sight. Made it legal ten weeks later.
No one objected, having noticed the change in the boy his pa had labeled
"resistant." No one, that is, save Uncle Reeves. Having seen Woody
Guthrie in concert... "That boy could have been the heir apparent.
Gaw dang that guinea sister!" Yet even Uncle Reeves clapped hard at
the wedding reception when Bonnie "Bewitched" the locals. And
he soloed on harp after hours that night for her country rendition of "Stardust."
Yes, she was a welcome addition, alright. A manifestation of good living.
Small, sturdy, rosy, and round. A comfortable match for the eye.
"Plane's overdue, Garita," Twanger cooed in his fidgeting daughter's
ear. "I hate this goddamn airport." He could tell her diaper was
making her squirm, and resigned as he was to public changes he felt too
distracted to make one. Back home, in Kansas City, people were less apt
to eye him suspiciously for changing his baby's diaper. But somehow these
rituals seemed less elemental in New York. Tainted. As if there was something
potentially twisted in a man attending to diapers. As if he were stealing
lascivious glances at her innocence. Some creep. A wolf in cowboy boots
stalking Little Red Riding Hood's virtue. It made him mad to think this
way. It made him hate these strangers. It made him want to fling her shitty
diaper at the wall. And bark. Pa's boy, resistant. Margarita was not getting
calmer through this. The official word at the arrival counter was, "Up
to an hour's delay." But two hours had now slipped by and the airline
people got ruder. Nerves and crowds and the holiday crunch. "Shit,
Miss, it's just November. You said one hour and that's a lie." "Sir,
sit down. I'm not driving the plane. When it's in, you'll know. Cool it."
"Cool it! I'll ..." and the baby wailed. And a fat man behind
him pushed. He felt his face go plum with rage, his arm jerk tight on Margarita.
he shuttled her off to the men's room. "This whole damn trip was a
stupid idea," he spit through his teeth. At the washroom sink, aware
of an impeccably dressed executive's disdain just one sink over, primping,
he made a show of standing his baby up as he dropped her dirty drawers before
the mirror. Both he and Margarita began to laugh at the sight of themselves
in shambles.
Twanger laid the baby back and calmly changed her diaper. The sight of her
purplish excrement somehow settle them both down. "Mommy poo-poo, Gita
poo-poo," gurgled Margarita, pointing out the inscrutable difference
she read in her mound of flattened feces. "That's right. You're gonna
be a fortune teller, ain't ya', baby? Ain't ya'?" The well-dressed
executive fled, his threshold past its limit. Twanger threw the diaper out
and snapped her up. Accomplished. He threw some water on his face and took
her in his arms. She wrapped herself around his neck and settled in for
napping. A distant, magic merry-go-round made music, and she slept.
When Twanger emerged into the terminal proper he was aware of someone sobbing.
A familiar array of tragic masks adorning passersby. Quick, abrupt movement
of uniformed officials. Scattered shouts. Agitation. Concurrently, he felt
the grinding of his own sense of time as it slowed..to...a....halt. And
everything was being photographed by fear: The lateness of the plane. Pounding
in his chest. The blanching flourescence. The heat of Margarita. The rapid
working of his disembodied legs. GATE . GATE . GATE . A woman waving schedules
was speaking to a crowd. She seemed to be aluminum. Reflecting too much
light. He worked his way forward. He focused on her lips. With all his force,
he listened to her saying...
"...is not within our power, at this time, to know, precisely where
communication was lost. There was no signal of distress. We have every reason
to believe that a ROUTINE malfunction is causing this TEMPORARY shutdown.
Power outages are a COMMON OCCURANCE during transcontinental flight patterns.
We have every reason to believe we will have word shortly. Please remain
calm. We're doing every...."
He phased her out. He let his blood's torrent drown her sound. He sat down.
On the floor. His baby around him. His face closed up against the world.
And listened. A peel of laughter, so loud and high and sweet, came ringing
through his bones like guitar strings. A cone of stainless steel formed
itself around his body, the pressure of which turned his fluids into stone.
And there, forever, conical, a thing without resilience, is where he brought
his daughter up to serve him.
